I don't know what to do with my self. I can feel that my urge to care is dropping lower and lower each day. Especially whilst at school. I'm at the level now where it's the last year of being reckless, next year I'll have to start being more serious. But honestly I can't even be bothered anymore. All my previous thoughts of efforts and trying have all vanished. I've already got three major assignments that are due next week in which I've barely began on. It's really quite silly but I'm starting to focus on the stupid things - looks, appearance, boys - all things that really shouldn't matter that much. But now they do. And then at home. All I'm finding myself wanting to do is curl up in bed, sip tea and read Jane Eyre or watch the Vampire Diaries. School simply means nothing to me anymore.